God remembered me about one of my strongest encounter with JESUS. It was in 2012, short before I married DanaH at 03/23/2012 in the "Blue Chapel" in "Gospel Forum" in Stuttgart.
I stood on a platform waiting for a train. It was about 9.30 in the morning. I was full of joy and I sang inside some songs to Him. And at once, I was "translated" in vision with open eyes where I saw Jesus on the Cross, as in Luke 23:44. I sensed a glimpse of the darkness that was present at that time. I saw how His head hang down and I sensed His deep deep sorrow, His abandonment, the heavy burden HE carried on His shoulder, for me, for us, for the whole mankind. Words cannot describe, what HE sensed, how HE suffered. And yet I was honored to sense with my whole being for 1-2 seconds what HE sensed in Luke 23:44.
Luke 23 [AMP]
44 It was now about the sixth hour (noon), and darkness came over the whole land until the ninth hour (3:00 p.m.), 45 because the sun was [j]obscured; and the veil [of the Holy of Holies] of the temple was torn in two [from top to bottom]. 46 And Jesus, crying out with a loud voice, said, “Father, into Your hands I commit My spirit!” Having said this, He breathed His last.
FAST FORWARD SEVEN YEARS LATER
The song can be heard here: https://youtu.be/vUU4dMR9Qn8
The Holy Spirit led me to this wonderful worship song "Emmanuel (God With Us Forever)" and as I heard it for the first time, something awoke in me. With the time I realized that there is connection between that encounter in 2012 and this song.
Hearing it, tears came out of me and I could not stop them for a long time. Then another connection was made. About three weeks ago I went out of obedience to a Christian Conference with the title "The Throne Room". There I stood only 20 Minutes. I tried to connect myself with the Holy Spirit, because I knew He wants to use me. And I began to cry, to wipe for about 10 Minutes. I knew is not due to any wounds I would have. I understood later on that the tears were for the fact that almost nobody has mourned the physical death of Jesus, so as you would mourn if your natural brother or sister would die. I sensed that Jesus was pleased that I have done this for many others and mourned further for a while. My whole body was shaken and tears were not to stop.
The newest insight that I gain today was summarized in the lyrics of the song mentioned before:
" Then heavens wore
The earth stood still
His final breath
He tore the veil
The angels sang holy is His name"
And this insight was a kind of consolation for me. Yes angels were there and sang "Holy is His Name!"
How imminent is the second comming of Jesus? We do not know.
And yet, these imminence, these "cheerful" warning fill me with hope awe and holy reverence. The song brings it to the point with these verses.
" Behold behold the One
Our love is come
Behold behold the One
Our king is come"
Maranatha
Comments by Margaret M. Lehman
As I shared this text with Margaret, she was so kind to permit me to publish her comments on it. I sense that Margaret's comments bring new facettes to this encounter."Your words reminded me of a couple things. First, as you talked about mourning the suffering He endured, I remembered years ago watching the movie "Passion of the Christ" that Mel Gibson produced. I couldn't speak the rest of the evening, even to my husband, it had been so overwhelming to be confronted with His pain. And my one recurring thought was "For me." It was actually similar to what first drew me to Him when I was a child: He had paid what I deserved, and I couldn't believe He really loved me that much. As it sounds like you experienced, our connection with how greatly He suffered does connect us more deeply with Him and His love.
I think your tears for His physical death were honoring to Him in the same way that the women at the tomb sought to honor Him by bringing spices to anoint His body. It was not that He needed either one but that He received the gift of love and honor that you and they gave.
The other thing that came to mind was this verse, because of the connection you made with His second coming. "Look, he is coming with the clouds, and every eye will see him, even those who pierced him; and all peoples on the earth will mourn because of him." Revelation 1:7
It is a privilege as believers to have mourned His death and have our mourning turned to joy both at His resurrection and second coming. Not so for the "peoples on the earth" who will only face mourning at His coming. The gravity of their fate spurs me to pray and seek for opportunity to tell them how to reconcile now with the One they pierced."
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